Fine!

Oh bother.

So dropped my girls off for their first day of school this morning.

Cried like a blubbering idiot.

Argh. I don't even want to think about how I'm going to be when I take our 4 year old for his first day on Thursday and our 3 year old next Wednesday.

I guess it just hit me how different this year is going to be than any other year thus far. I'm a bit overwhelmed to think of it. I feel like everything is changing and there is nothing I can do about it. Actually it's not that I don't want the changes... In fact, this is going to be the best year of my marriage, family, church, lots of things... New beginnings and new challenges... And I like challenges. But they make me uncomfortable. I don't know... I guess I'm at that in between state of feeling that although I want the positive changes, maybe it's not so bad right where I am... Maybe things could just stay the same and I could forgo the growing pains for awhile. But then again, I'm not real comfortable with apathy either...

so, Oh bother.