When my alarm went off, I realized the pressure in my head was building to migraine potential... 15 minutes later, Christian was up because he had wet the bed (today's his 2nd day of school), and within a few minutes everybody was up, needing things, wanting things, whining, fussing, being tired and cranky... Blah.
I think I have a problem with focusing.
Or I have too many interests.
I feel distracted by my own excitement... it's frustrating. I want to do everything. AND I want to do everything 100%... as far as I can tell, that's probably impossible. I think it's that the last time I had time in the day to accomplish things, I was so young the whole world was mine... I could do anything and the possibilities were endless... Problem is, I guess I still sorta think that way, and that's not very realistic.
It's funny. You would think Allen, Mr. ADHD, would be the impulsive one... but he is actually the one that keeps me from going off the deep end! It has been good to have him around... He tells me when my ideas are not possible according to the laws of physics or reminds me that Hey, we have 4 children AND we're entering mid-life... we have limitations... Who knew? Poor Allen... he has no choice but to be a cautious pessimist...
I need to learn how to prioritize. Let me add that to my unwritten list of things to do.
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