Old and Fat.

I've had a hard time reading lately.  I think because my reading plan has been in Leviticus, and when I open my Bible to that book, my brain has this default dinner-planning mode that switches on... so no matter what my eyes see on the page, my brain is going Yes, I have rice and salsa, and black beans would go well with that...

But today I got to read some in Psalms.  I like David a lot.  I think I've mentioned that.  I mean, yes, he is a schmuck.  But I love that he just is who he is and that God accepts him that way.  I love the way he writes and that he doesn't appear to care too much what his readers may think of him.  Maybe that's why I like him so much.  I think I am that way.  It's not that I don't care.  It's just that I can't quite seem to misrepresent myself to portray the person that I think everybody would like.  The thought of trying to pull that off exhausts me anyway.

This verse jumped out at me today:

Psalm 25:21
Use all your skill to put me together; I wait to see your finished product.

My thoughts on that?  So glad you asked.  No matter how old or fat I get, and no matter how smart I think I've become... I always feel like a little kid with God.  It's such a good feeling.  I don't much care for the old, fat, smart me... I think who I am when I am with God is who I REALLY am.  I like that me, because in that relationship my worth is not based on what I know or my experiences or skills... my worth comes only from who He is, and when I am letting myself just be His child instead of all that other stuff, things are just the way they're supposed to be and all is well with the universe.  He really is my Rock.  He never changes and He shows me who I am when I forget.